The only way to be able to work for yourself is to have something people want from you.
It takes creativity and dedication to see through the vision, to make it in the real world.
It takes learning specific skills that could be useful, believing you have something worth sharing, and staying organized.
My life feels like a bubble at times, the happiness in me lifts me and I can float for a period, so light and bright. But there is a sharp, heavy point that arrives to burst it, bringing me back to level-headedness, a bland state of mind where I don’t know anymore.
I repeat the cycle of creating my bubble and then bursting it, over and over. I’m only able to go with this flow and work it out each time, I guess that’s how life is. Sometimes people don’t break free from pain, we just figure out how to use it, not knowing if we’ve healed enough, we just keep moving on.
Having our own gardens and clean water are basic needs of every person in the world. Having the convenience to shop at markets and get anything, be online, drive anywhere, have enough fuel, while “owning” something – these are luxuries. The life we live is wild in its own way, (I speak for myself in U.S.A.) What’s to come is unknown, maybe even a little worrisome. I’m grateful for flowers, and their ability to keep me in the present moment. I happen to check on the Passion vines yesterday and noticed the first and only bud right before it began to open. I stood there and watched it as the wind helped open the petals and flip the stamens. I’ve watched a few Passion Flowers (or Maypops) open before, but this time it was the very first one of the summer in my garden, a special and magical moment. Now the year is truly nearly half way over.
I’m just starting small, creating content and grow this website, I just need to keep doing what I am doing. Take lots of notes, research and be dedicated to my one great task in life: to nurture. I am only good for sharing my love for nature, music and art. I’d like to do that for my own children, if I can do anything as a mother it’s to give them lots of activities that will keep them learning and imagining. All children deserve that.
What about all the schools near blight in Memphis? Are students going to go back to school, or are parents homeschooling more now? Would I be able to provide some nature-themed, creative wellness workshop? Would I be able to make something people could download and do on their own? Then make videos of my hands working on the project and use this website to blog about the activities…? What if I could offer something to help anyone who tried the activity feel a sense of connection to nature through art?
Maybe a deep breath would help…
I’m going to focus on the space I’ll work in, a beautiful table set up, baskets to collect items in, supplies to use, and having a stand for my camera. I want to simplify my focus because I tend to over-think, speak too soon, doubt, and be insecure. But I have to push myself because no one else can.
Here’s a song I made in 2014. I listened to it for the first time in years today randomly, realizing how relavent it still is, and was just amazed at how I used to be able to create so much using Garage Band on the iMac. I had so much to sing about… and I still do.
Channeling Passions 